Autumn Days

So I'm sitting here having just watched and again been inspired by my favourite programme of all time on demand (yah for technology) - Grand Designs .. these people built the most stunning house under an old derelict (such a cool word - derelict) barn in a area of outstanding beauty. Gees louise I wish we were filthy rich and I could at this moment be sitting playing with and tweeking our own grand design plans while they (hairy lovely builders) break ground and begin our dream house outside my site office window. I think I'd make a superb building project manager - it would save having to dress-up and worry re clothes and hair - jeans and designer safety boots ... what more could a girl like me want.

Anyway back to the point before I do burst into tears at the blehness of it all as I gaze fleeting at the bank statement. I'm sitting here watching 'our' squirrel family rush about collecting as many nuts (lovingly provided by the neighbours) and acorns (lovely dropped by the huge oak) and marvelling at the way things just seem to happen... it's been mis and rainy for the last few days but today is dryer and the wind has picked up again but it seems for the sole purpose of creating an awespiring (is that a word?) whirlwind of autumn coloured leaves to float effortlessly to the ground in our small green patch. What a thought provoking sight. I hadn't even realised the leaves had quite changed colour, can even spot a few red ones and not for want of looking as I've been keeping an eye out for the changes. It's a cliche but things happen in the blink of an eye sometimes and life passes you by.

This lady on grand designs was so in love with her project and her building that she never once stopped smiling. It's contagious and I find myself sitting here smiling at will! Unusual for me as I'm normally not prone to smiles and am capable of finding much to bemoan about my life.

The seasons are a changing, life is moving on and I'm going to miss it if I'm not careful.

My kids are all getting so grown-up. Owen particular as I suppose is right since he's making the change from toddler to schoolboy as he calls himself - 'I'm not a baby mom, I'm a schoolboy now.' Jenna is so desperately trying to swim thru the sea that is hormones and being a girl aged 9. It scares me to think how fast the years have actually gone. There are days when life seems to standstill and then days were I wonder what have I done - it's gone so fast I can't remember.

Robert is so adorable (he'll probably hate that word but I can't find another one). He is so grown -up and knows all his facts but it just makes him so happy when he gets to cuddle up to me on the couch or sit next to me at the dinner table.

New season resolution 1 - Smile more
New season resolution 2 - Hug my kids more often

Alas while I have been musing for the last little while, those blasted fairies haven't come and my house (not the dream one) is still a tip and my ironing pile is about to grow as the tumble dryer has stopped turning and again it's almost time to fetch Owen and not much longer till Clay arrives home from his 10 day trip to Turkey (business....). He'll be 'happy to see me' and it'll all be good but once he's had some sleep, a meal or two and got back into the rat race, I'll hear about it if the house isn't at least tidy (not necessarily clean) by the time he gets back.

Best I bury some nuts before the winter comes then! :-)